candilovesjon

I know we should not weigh ourselves everyday but I’ve been doing so,well Wed I was 181 and now I’m still 181 I’m just checking if I could hit a plateau already?I’m only going into my 3rd week!I weigh in on Sundays and the Sunday before last I was 183 so I should be happy but I’m worried that I’m stuck here and not going to lose,I know I should wait til this coming Sunday before worrying but I really want to meet my goals!I sound crazy so I’ll calm down now and try to stay off the scale til Sunday,but it’s an addiction of mine now!ugh I’m so frustrated with myself now!

I know my favorite exercise class is tonight cardio karate so I am going to try to get there!I did not exercise @ all yesterday but I kept my calorie limit yay!it really isn’t easy to do this focus on me thing when a newborn is involved,lol!I am in such high demand around here very busy with a teen with diabetes(type1)a toddler with asthma and a newborn who can’t poop it is truly a struggle to get everything accomplished so naturally I am the one who misses out!don’t get me wrong I wouldn’t have it any other way just wish I would get it done!I am from today forward going to leave the kiddos with Daddy and taking 1 hour to do some form of exercise probably walking.walking is very therapeutic it is so nice to get outside and walk/think!ahhh now I am looking forward to it!!well gotta clean house while lil ones are napping good luck to all!

well I’ve had my 6 week chk up so now I can start losing weight again WAHOO!I was 168 pre-pregnancy and am now 184 so I have 16 pounds to get ack to where I was,and all total I have 34 I want to lose.I was hoping to not have so much fat gained during my pregnancy but I kept giving in and eating tons of food so now I must deal with it!

my goals are to eat between 1200-1500 calories a day drink 94 ounces of water a day exercise very intense twice a week and moderately 3 times a week.I am so glad I still have my gym membership ’cause this weather is not nice enough to drag the lil ones for a walk!well baby’s fussing I’ll be checking in tomorrow!good luckto all on their journey!

I have my 6 wk chk up today so looking forward to getting back into the gym,YAY!!I have really been trying not to obsess about my weight but it was such a big part of my life pre-pregnancy and I love the feeling of losing weight and feeling accomplishment but I Am so glad I waited and focused on eating right,it took a minute but I got on track!I really only have 17lbs to get back to where I was before baby so I am not going to freak out about it anymore!I had 35 lbs last pregnancy so I did pretty good this time!I have a busy day with my lil ones Dr’s appt and then mine so I’ll get going but I am so excited to be able to get back to the norm soon!!WOO-HOO starting Saturday I am going to get back to weight loss!

well baby is 2 and a half weeks old and I just can’t get everybody into a routine!I still count my calories BUT I tend to eat too many! I do not have the ok from the midwife to get back into the gym and I seem to have this all or nothing mentality!if I can’t burn calories than I can’t control the ones I eat!I really need to get this together because I am about 20 lbs heavier than I was before baby!I had lost all but a few pounds from my last pregnancy and then I got pregnant so I feel a little defeated!I was so sure I would not gain too much fat but sure enough I did!!our sleep is so off so that makes it so much harder for me to get our eating on shedule as well! I am so upset with myself!I can’t wait til next week when I have my post partum check up once they give me the ok I am going to hit the gym!!!I would love to start walking but the weather is ugly here so I can’t take my lil ones out in this!oh well I guess y’all think I’m crazy being so ready to get back into the swing of things so soon after I had the baby but I just need to fit into my clothes,lol!actually I just want to be on a regular routine and I can’t seem to get my 2 year old on a schedule!anyway I’m rambling mostly because of sleep deprivation!I’m not giving up though I WILL get it together!

WAHOOOOO! I am almost done with this pregnancy I’ve gained 31 pounds so far so I’m probably going to have about 11 lbs of fat gained not bad comparatively speaking!!my last one I had 35 lbs of fat after I had her so not bad at all!!well can’t wait to get back into the swing of things!!

my baby is due in 33 days woo-hoo!! I have gained 30 pounds exactly already and I know for sure 5 and a half is baby!I know some is fluid placenta etc but I really think about 15 will be fat gained back,ugh,not as bad as my last pregnancy though! I have had an uneventful pregnancy but everything else in my life has been completely eventful! my husband lost his job so along with that went our insurance I have applied for medicaid,but that is a waiting process!last sunday my almost 13 yr old was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes!we are on a rollercoaster right now trying to figure out his insulin dosage and I know he’ll be having highs and lows until we figure it out,this is so very scary!! I know everything happens for a reason and I know God is with us all the way so we will get through this! The childrens hospital has been so good to us and are sending the bills directly to medicaid they also helped us sign up for a special needs insurance that he will definitely qualify for,this is also a long wait! God is good though so I’m really fighting to stay positive!just wanted to get these things off my mind but thanks for reading!!!

well I’m 7 months pregnant my husband’s last day of work is tomorrow(bank went under) I have no insurance for prenatal care,but I was handling that quite well! well this Monday morning my son’s classmate ran away from home with a gun,Wednesday morning they found him dead from a self inflicted gun shot wound,that was my breaking point!I am a huge mess this boy was 12,12 years old! my son was in his class several times throughout grade school they were on the same soccer team he was so friendly and sweet!I can’t shake the feeling that we as a “community” meaning the school church etc have failed him!I am so hurt and shocked that he felt this isolated and alone that he saw this as his only way out!apparently he was being tormented by bullies he did not show any warning signs he just left his home and took his own life!!My heart aches for him and his family! Ever since I’ve heard the news of his death I have been crying and eating!I count calories even now being pregnant and have reached 3000 calories twice,ugh,I really need to take care of myself for the sake of my unborn baby!I never knew I was this bad of an emotional eater and plan to stop it now!I just have so much going on right now and hurting for my boy as well it is such a blow to these 6th graders they are very confused and sad right now!I’m sorry for all this depressing news but I have to get my mind straightened out so I can take care of myself,my family needs me healthy and I’m housing a lil one right now so more than ever I need to get back on track!!!just needed to get this off my chest and I start tomorrow eating well again.I know I will still be an emotional wreck so I’ve planned my healthy meals and even have the times written out of when I can eat so I can keep myself on track!Thanks for taking time to read this!

I am 7 months pregnant and have already gained 22 pounds UGH!! I fear the end result,lol!! all in all this has been an easy pregnancy and fast as well!only 84 days til my due date WOO-HOO! I still occasionally get jealous of ppl who are losing weight and I wish I can join in but I just know I have to hold back a while longer!I am hoping to not be back to where I started and still count calories trying to keep my fat gain down but I don’t think I’m going to be that successful with it! oh well whatever my weight is when the baby is born I will just have to start from there and not look back! I Hope everyone is meeting there goals and hope you all have a wonderful Christmas!

I’ve checked on the weight gain and on “average” women gained 24 lbs by now so looks like I am right on target!

That the baby has Downs Syndrome,that means there is a 99% chance it does not!! I am so thrilled that there is no birth defect like Spina Bifida etc I was so sad and scared! I had an ultra sound and everything was fine,PRAISE GOD! I was told about the 1% but I  feel every pregnancy really is a 50/50 chance of something being wrong so I won’t let that worry me!I need anothr ultra sound to keep an eye on the heart kidneys etc but so far everything is good!

I still struggle with thoughts of my weight I eat way too many calories but can’t seem to stay at the # I need! I am sometimes extremely hungry really hungry and other times I’m able to get just enough! I just want to be able to forget my weight and just get through the pregnancy but I am such an obsessive person! I read a blog today though that did encourage me I realize if I do gain all the weight I lost back it is not the end of the world I’ll be disappointed of course but I’ll just have to do it again!I at times miss watching the # on the scale go down,now I have to watch it rise and not be upset! I am close to half way through and my weight has been right on target but still I freak that a lot of it is fat! I had so much fun losing weight and exercising! I do walk a lot because it is good for pregnancy but I have not been in the gym for a long time,I do not have any way of getting there at the moment.I walk 30 min to an hour 3-4 times a week so I think thats pretty good I burn 175-300 calories.

I’m going to go for a while again,I get envious of everyone being able to lose weight so Idon’t check in too often! I wish everyone luck and hope you all reach your goals this week and the rest of yor journey!!!